hummmm i have to wash Corys sheets now...... My dumb ass got shit faced a throw up all over them.... i am never drinking that much that fast again..... I mean i like drinking but i like to just buzz and talk a chill i hate getting shit faced a getting sick...  yep o well guess ill just lay off the drinking till neck saturday..... I do but dont want to drink that night just becuz I got so sick last night makes me not want to but its corys B-Day....... I cant wait

omg its been the best i have meet the best boy ever hes so great.... I mean i was hung up over jermiah forever and a few days ago i found out that he called me and you know what i didnt even care... i didnt call him back didnt go to his house to see what he wantted i just plan said o thats cool and then when to this other guys house.... I am happy again it took so long i never thought i would get happy again and now the one thing i hoped and prayed for has came to me... Everything happends for a reason.... gosh i wish he was here right now this is the first time that i have to go to sleep alone in like a week and a half...... not saying that in a sluty way cuz he is so sweet that he respects me a lot ya know we have not done anything yet.... I just love knowing he is there........... OMG you people will never know how awesome he is

God  I miss and Love him the best thing to ever happen to me and hes gone I will never have him again and it kills me he was the only thing that ever made me truly happy....... I was so happy with him I couldnt stop smilling and without him its hard to smile. God why cant i have him back I would do anything I have never felt this way for someone in my whole life. I dont believe I will ever be happy again..... I really never knew you could want one person this bad but i do i dont want to but I cant help it I really really do...

And for one desperate moment there

He crept back in her memory

God its so painful Something thats so close

And still so far out of reach

I Tryed Teh Good Ol Cocaine....

LOL a meth Lab got busted yesterday I dont know them witch is good cuz i would have killed those people cuz i dont care if they want to make it or whatever but they had 3 small children living in that house now thats fucked up

Mom and daddy got the bast cocaine...

Ritalin's never gonna feel the same...

Twenty-four hrs on an empty brain...

I got my finger on the trigger and you're in the way...

no more drugs for poor little ol me..................... im so sad i want them.... but if they drug test me again and find them im fucked.... and i would have to go to and insane place and y hell no im not......i have not had anything in like 3 weeks now haha it was hard as hell to do...... i mean i knew i could do without them but untill i stoped i didnt realize how heard it really was..... its way fuckin heard....... i started to have withdraws and started bitchin people out everyone and punching shit for no reason every little thing would pisses me off to no end..... everytime i start to think about how i cant have them i just want to cry i get so depresses....... its so unfar...... if i dont care weather i die or not y shouldnt i do them and y should eveyone else care............?    i talked to jeremiah for the first time yesterday its been like 3 weeks sents i have talked to him it was odd.... he hasnt done anything in like 3 weeks either..... its krazy... he told me he didnt think it would of been that heard either but its hearder then what you think but im doin it....... i didnt get to talk to him long on the acount of im not allowed to...... i think once all of this bull shit goes down im going to start up again this time i just cant be a bitch when i start coming down cant let them know im never hungry and have to lead them to believe that i go to sleep haha so they dont start thinking anything..... i think im going to get hooked up with Mark so that he will give me druges for free haha so that they will not wonder where my money went...... im so smart haha.... pray for me..... it will all be good again one day